I’ve decided this year that I’m ditching the word “hope”. I’m going to stop hoping for things: hoping to get better, hoping to get back to my writing, hoping to get back to my art. Hope is for those who lack the will to actually /do/ something.
I plan on doing things. So this year, my keyword is determined. I’m determined to get better, determined to get back to my writing, and determined to get back to my art.
That was a post I made a few hours ago on Facebook. True to my word, here I am to update my blog and get back on the right path for myself and my life. I may still stumble from time to time, since I’m still struggling a bit with my auto-immunity issues and finding some decent pain management, but I’m determined not to let it continue to drag me down. I have a lot of things I want to get done, a lot of them that I will likely pay for in pain, but that’s what it takes. I won’t always be at my best, but at least I’ll know that I put forth the effort.
To that end, you’ll probably see more on this blog than you have in the past couple of years. A lot of it will probably be nonsense writing from my forays into the world of Hydaelyn on Final Fantasy XIV Online, some of it will even be from my adventures with the Table of Fantasy Awesomeness every Wednesday with our Dungeons & Dragons Adventurers League table. You might even get some of my classic writing and roleplaying prompts, or my oftentimes opinionated self ranting about one nerd-topic or another. Whatever comes in the days ahead, I want to live up to the mantra that features so readily on this website as a hallmark to my life: I write, therefore, I am.